When I wrote that we planned to turn our family of 3 into a family of 4 this year, I wrote that with certainty and excitement as we were expecting our second child sometime around August 31st. Never did I imagine I would miscarry and be left feeling empty, devastated but most of all wondering “why?” I just couldn’t understand why this happened to us. I was in complete shock. After hearing the news, I had to wait 5 days for it to be confirmed. During those 5 days, I tried to prepare myself, but this just isn’t something you can prepare yourself for and I kept holding on to hope that they were wrong.
As I was in the prep room waiting for my D&C, Acts 17:26 came to my mind. “From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live.”
Even though I was devastated, I knew that I had to trust God. I know that he has a plan and that His timing is perfect.
I thought about my parents and their first child they lost at 8 months into the pregnancy. I couldn’t imagine how much harder it was for them considering the devastation I felt at only 8 weeks. At the time of their loss, I’m sure the last thing they wanted to hear or listen to was that this is all in God’s plan. But my parents only planned to have 2 children so with me being the younger of the 2, had they not lost their first child, there is a good chance they would have never had me. Knowing this information, I have to trust God’s plan. He knew exactly where I was supposed to be.
We don’t plan to give up hope on turning our family of 3 into a family of 4. The timing just wasn't right at this particular time, but hopefully it will be soon. All of our friends and family have been so supportive during this time and I just want them all to know how thankful we are to have you all in our lives.
Kristi and family - We are so sorry for your loss and cannot imagine your pain. Please let us know if we can do anything to help you through this difficult time.
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Here are some notes from my Woman's Study Bible:
ReplyDelete"Both parents share in the loss of their child and need to be comforted by Christian friends (Eccl 3:4; Rom 12:15; Phil 2:1,2) The parents may need to be reminded that God's love encompasses the preborn and that He is involved in the development of the child in the womb (Ps. 139:13, 14). The "infants who never saw light" of day are at rest (Job 3:16,17). Children, though lost to earthly life, are special to God (Mark 10:14), and Christian parents will one day be reunited with them (2 Sam 12:23)."
I hope these verses will bring some comfort.
Kristi, I'm so sorry to hear of your miscarriage. I lost my first pregnancy at 12 weeks so I know how you're feeling. I'm so happy to read that even during the darkest days, you know God has a plan for your family. Please find a little comfort in knowing that many people, including myself, are praying for you all. Get lots of rest and enjoy that sweet Olivia, because I know in no time at all you'll be running after another little one!
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